june 9th

today is bastian's birthday! we celebrated it on german time though-
because apparently his birthday is not affected by timezone changes.

today is also new psychiatrist day. yay?
i have actually been looking forward to this appointment because since i have been off of medication- and i mean completely off-
i have become this weird depressed reclusive person.
i cannot fathom going out into a public social setting-
the thought of social interaction scares me to the point of preferring to be asleep instead of being awake.
hopefully mood stabilizers will bring me back to the land of the living and will make me grateful for existing.
because right now- existence does not feel so splendid.
its more grim and pointless than ever.

these days im going through the motions just to keep my head above the water.



p.s.
so much for fiscal responsibility-
i bought CONTROL on dvd, life aquatic on dvd, and that smarty pants wii game.
(i still dont like video games.)



P.P.S.
ok so i read perezhilton pretty often- but i honestly cannot stand that guy.
he draws retarded crap on peoples' faces and gets famous/paid for this?
so when i read about how nobody showed up to meet him at his clothing line launch at hot topic-
it makes me laugh with pity. poor guy.