father's day?

yeah i called my dad on saturday to see if he wanted to have lunch either that day or on sunday (for father's day).
he said no.
so he called me on sunday- and i told him cuban had just given me tickets for the astros game- and that i wanted him to come with me.
he said no.




i dont know if my medicine is working.
had a panic attack this weekend-
i feel okay now, i am just really really really jaded.
i have lost faith in several arenas of my life.
i feel like i have more obligations than desires of my own.
that ratio is disheartening.