n-gs bake donuts

ok so i think my shopping mania fluctuates daily-
similar to the shining episode and homer's urge to kill....
RISING..... falling..... RISING...... falling

i am buying this tomorrow (payday):

but i guess i should note that i seriously entertained the idea of
opening a credit card just to buy a burberry purse with it. (WTF)
financing a purse. sigh.
it's not even the "designer" aspect -
its the actual bag that lures me in and sucks on my soul with its sweet, sweet british plaid and it whispers in my ear how awesome it would look on my shoulder and then poof!!!! MY SOUL IS TRAPPED INSIDE THE PURSE IN THE BURBERRY STORE IN THE GALLERIA FOR ALL ETERNITY.
so if i take out a line of credit for the bag- i would actually be buying my soul back.
it is seductive and gorgeous. it also weighs like 5 lbs with nothing in it.
(and i cant even find a pic of it online. boooourns!!!)
anyway- i am not actually buying it. a girl can dream.
besides... if i had it... i would just lust after something else just as wholeheartedly and carelessly.
i welcome the idea that i dont have everything- but i like the things i have.


ok so i have maniacal shopping-
and my new meds are not working yet or something.
cause i was bouncing off the walls on sunday
but spent all day in bed on saturday cause my body was depressed or something?
(i mean i wasnt sad .... i just was lethargic and apathetic to life... er my body was)

anyway my goal to reach for this week is:
DRUMROLL PLS
to bring my lunch to work everyday.
i usually go out to eat everyday for lunch- and then most of the time for dinner with b.
now i am going to eat lean cuisines or make sammiches.

after that goal is reached and maintained the next goal will be:
DRUM ROLL AGAIN
a) put aside money every paycheck
b) make a budget
c) carry my alloted "spending money" in cash only. (the rest on debit.)

wish me luck on the road to fiscal responsibility and the accountability of maniacal actions!


biscuit is a functional floor duster.



i <3 crystal horn:

C-------------- (3:35:44 PM): so i started watching weeds, kept hearing how good it was

C-------------- (3:35:50 PM): i didnt know it was actually about weed